Note to self:
Do not look at your neighbor, though he may be causing a distraction. Do not concern yourself with the dress or behavior of others. Do not look around the church to see who you can see or who you may be seen by - simply look at Him and allow His unfathomable love to penetrate your heart so that it may become more like His. If you would fix your gaze upon Him steadily, you would not be mindful of the faults of others. You would not even be conscious of your own faults, of which He is well aware for he needs no reminders from you about your sinfulness. If you want to know what He does about your sins, simply look up at the Crucifix. The Master has no need or want of your self-flagellation. He desires only your love, which you cannot give fully give Him until you have left yourself behind.
You will not have left yourself behind so long as you call attention to yourself. Reminding Him of your faults or your strengths is one and the same: a preoccupation with yourself. When you have learned to forget yourself, only then might you be ready to accept all and any trial He wills to send you. Only when you have emptied yourself of all self-attachment will you be a vessel capable of accepting His Graces. Without His Graces, you will continue to wallow in self-pity, stalled along the path of spiritual progress and destined to repeat the same errors over and over again.
Once you let go of all of you stubbornly cling to, you might finally discover your soul, which finds its life in Him and Him alone. You will rejoice at every injury, every slight, every unkind word or deed. You will delight in being deprived of even that which you think you can not live without. You will discover a joy known by His saints, who plead your case to the Master without you even knowing it. You will begin to know what it means to love Him for Who He is and not for what He will reward you with if you follow His precepts.
So, when you enter into His Presence, look at Him, and do not divert your eyes. Your eyes are the window to your soul, and if you constantly shift them from one distraction to another, how can your soul progress? Fix your gaze upon the Divine Prisoner of Love and He will do all. And when you must finally take leave of Him, go forth doing the same for others - loving as you are loved.