Monday, March 11, 2013

Look at Him

Note to self:

Look at Him, the Divine Prisoner of Love Who awaits you in His gilded prison.  There is no need for anything else at this time.  Leave aside your sadness, your worry, your anxiety, your anger, your disappointment, your resentment, your jealousy, your desire for revenge.  Forget about your shortcomings, your failures, your misery,  your falling down over and over again.  Look only at Him and consider the love with which He welcomes you, poor and miserable as you are.

Do not look at your neighbor, though he may be causing a distraction. Do not concern yourself with the dress or behavior of others. Do not look around the church to see who you can see or who you may be seen by - simply look at Him and allow His unfathomable love to penetrate your heart so that it may become more like His.  If you would fix your gaze upon Him steadily, you would not be mindful of the faults of others.  You would not even be conscious of your own faults, of which He is well aware for he needs no reminders from you about your sinfulness.  If you want to know what He does about your sins, simply look up at the Crucifix.  The Master has no need or want of your self-flagellation.  He desires only your love,  which you cannot give fully give Him until you have left yourself behind.

You will not have left yourself behind so long as you call attention to yourself.  Reminding Him of your faults or your strengths is one and the same: a preoccupation with yourself.   When you have learned to forget yourself, only then might you be ready to accept all and any trial He wills to send you.  Only when you have emptied yourself of all self-attachment will  you be a vessel capable of accepting His Graces. Without His Graces, you will continue to wallow in self-pity, stalled along the path of spiritual progress and destined to repeat the same errors over and over again.

Once you let go of all of you stubbornly cling to,  you might finally discover your soul, which finds its life in Him and Him alone.  You will rejoice at every injury, every slight, every unkind word or deed.  You will delight in being deprived of even that which you think you can not live without.   You will discover a joy known by His saints, who plead your case to the Master without you even knowing it.  You will begin to know what it means to love Him for Who He is and not for what He will reward you with if you follow His precepts.

So, when you enter into His Presence, look at Him, and do not divert your eyes.  Your eyes are the window to your soul, and if you constantly shift them from one distraction to another, how can your soul progress?  Fix your gaze upon the Divine Prisoner of Love and He will do all.  And when you must finally take leave of Him, go forth doing the same for others - loving as you are loved.

End of note to self


  1. Joyce, this is exquisite, and all that it contains is so very true. As I read through, I wondered what spiritual book you might have copied it out of. There is so much wisdom and self-knowledge here. Thank you for a beautiful meditation to keep in mind as I go off to bed after such a stressful day.

    And, if all continues to go well, I will be able to keep my Tuesday holy hours, offering them in Thanksgiving, and including a special remembrance of you, who are so kindly offering one for my sister. I love the Communion of Saints! Thank you, Joyce, for sharing your "note." Love and hugs...

  2. Hi Patricia,
    I hope this morning finds you and your sister in better shape than last night! You are so kind. I "wrote" this meditation at Adoration yesterday as I tried to focus on the Supreme Gift contained in the Monstrance. I know that St. Therese referred to Jesus as the "Divine Prisoner of Love" and I probably should have footnoted that, but the rest is simply what I thought and felt yesterday. I'm glad you found it useful. And I hope when I forget these words of advice, you will remind me to go read it (because you know how quickly I fall!)
    God bless you for your kindness. Prayers are most appreciated.
    Love and hugs right back at ya

  3. Joyce, I thought the same as Patricia and scanned to the bottom to see which saint to attribute this wisdom too. Would it surprise you to know this is exactly what I needed right now?
    : )

    Especially this:

    'Once you let go of all of you stubbornly cling to, you might finally discover your soul'

    I think this will be my prayer for the rest of Lent; for the current test I'm in seems to require it.

    Thank you so much for sharing this.
    Blessings always +

    1. Dear Caroline,
      It seems the Holy Spirit is hard at work on our little circle of Catholic bloggers because we seem to be taking turns lifting each when the other most needs it. I was having a rather drab Lent when yet another trial appeared and though it at first seemed in-formidable it now appears to what just what I needed to allow me to draw close to Jesus. As I told a friend yesterday, I really missed being near Him and I truly believe He missed me as well. So for now, though this trial will test us, I couldn't be happier. I have all I need.
      Love and prayers always xoxo

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    1. Thank you Kelly, I didn't forget about you. We have been busy with Forty Hours Devotion at our parish (closing ceremonies were tonight) and tomorrow I have a funeral Mass. But I'm going to take you up on your offer very soon!
      God bless, hope the fort is holding up

  5. Great--no problem at all. If I have a few minutes someone usually senses it and fills it up for me, even if that someone is the cat.
    Still praying, and glad to know you are holding up as well. I have a bit of an idea to run by you!
    And, yeah, our loony bin, er, fort is still here. :)


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